she said..

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tiba-tiba ada sms, pas baca kaget..
" Pacar toh :'( "

what's wrong??
then he replied,
ada yang bilang kalo saya kayak SAMPAH-nya ***?

that's really bad word for me.

kalau pun becandaan, tidak semestinya saya dikasi tau tentang itu,
tapi kalo bukan becandaan, kayaknya yang bilang bgitu salah..

they and you don't know what's on my mind!
they and you don't know how i feel when you said like that!

she don't say directly what she feel,
doesn't mean she doesn't care with you.

bukannya juga membela,
lagi dan lagi ikut menyalahkan.

dan lagi dan lagi said,
. . . . . . . . .
maaf baru bilang.
maybe,
masih ada puluhan, ratusan, ribuan, bahkan jutaan in your mind that not yet you tell.
dan ujung-ujungnya cuma bilang...........................................................................maaf.
i don't need your sorry,
i need you realize your promise, "will not repeat it again."
your words that, no more you hide, no more cobblestone or a big problem in your heart,
everything's clear, etc..

Saya yang berbaik hati (i think),
dan memang tidak mau mnyusahkan orang,
malah diartikan yang tidak-tidak..

the important thing that you must know:
* she never thinks like what your friend said, what you felt.
* she just worry about you.
* she don't want to bothersome others, including you (you may be ask you are his boyfriend, etc.. but please understand her)

THE SHORT SENTENCES ABOVE NOT FELT SO SAD, AS SHE FEEL.